Remember You

Today I feel so empty. I don't know why. How make it right? I hate this feeling.
I feel that I am no one. Useless. Nothing I can do.
Today makes me remember someone. Someone who has gone. So far away.
Actually, I don't miss him. I know he's in the better place now. But, this heartache can't understand it. Many words didn't said, many questions had never answered. I wanna see him. I wanna meet him once again. I have so much to say. I wanna ask him, something that makes me confuse. Until now, I don't know about his feeling to me. I've never heard that he loved me. I've never heard he say it to me but he's so far away.
Why you leave me like this? Why you leave me without explain all of this confusion?
Sometimes I hate you, Sometimes I regret about everything happen to us, but sometimes I miss you dad.. I miss you so much..