Make it the Last

Lately, I often faced bad situations. You can call it 'UNLUCKY'. The word I hate and don't ever wanna say it in my life. Since January, I faced the bad situations that make me uncomfortable. In the end of January, I had a miscarriage. I lost my baby. Thereafter, My mom went to the mat with my brother. They are like cat and dog. Again and again made a row. And since that time they are not talking to each other. So annoying.
Many bad experiences happen in my life. The sadness came together with the hatred. I've tried to be patient and faced it all. I wish it could be end. But.. Hmmm... Really, I don't know what's wrong with me. I see everybody has change. They become unfriendly. They, my friends, my family, the people who I met on the road. They look like hate me. What I have done? have I done bad things?
There is a problem. A problem that I myself can't understand it. My friend seems to be angry with me. I don't know why. But she didn't answer my call, not replied my text. I asked her 'why', but there was not respond. I was not in a good mood yesterday. I've tried to be a good girl. I asked her nicely, but she didn't care. So? I decided to end it all. Just do what you want to do. I don't care anymore.
I don't know, why the problems came and went in the beginning of this year. When I hope the happiness to come unremitting, I actually get a lot of problems. How a pity.
Today, I ticketed. I just take a deep breath. What else?

The Ticket

I hope it's the last..

Remember You

Today I feel so empty. I don't know why. How make it right? I hate this feeling.
I feel that I am no one. Useless. Nothing I can do.
Today makes me remember someone. Someone who has gone. So far away.
Actually, I don't miss him. I know he's in the better place now. But, this heartache can't understand it. Many words didn't said, many questions had never answered. I wanna see him. I wanna meet him once again. I have so much to say. I wanna ask him, something that makes me confuse. Until now, I don't know about his feeling to me. I've never heard that he loved me. I've never heard he say it to me but he's so far away.
Why you leave me like this? Why you leave me without explain all of this confusion?
Sometimes I hate you, Sometimes I regret about everything happen to us, but sometimes I miss you dad.. I miss you so much..