Last night, I felt so empty. I didn't know why. I just felt so afraid with someday. The day when he wants to leave me.
Lately, I always be angry with him, with something, very small things. Maybe it's the effect of my pregnancy. I always in irascibility. Sometimes, I can't control my anger.
That night, I knew he still had the pip with my act yesterday. I asked him, if he still mad with me. He told me that he doesn't like my temper. He wants me to change my attitude. He wants me to be a good wife, mom for our son. I asked him again, when I lost control and I'll be so angry, always and can't change what I am to be, do you still love me and stay with me? He answered, and I understand. I don't know how I feel, but the night feels like empty and so cold. I realize that nothing is eternal but I don't wanna lose his feeling to me.
Maybe I feel disappointed or realize or hopeless. This is me, I don't know 'can I change my nature?' and 'can I retain the one I love?'. The time will answer all of my question, but I will always try to be better. Not change anything but I'll do my best. Love you my sweet heart..
